Change in You

Nope. Looks like I won't be getting any money at all. None. Whatsoever. This sucks - and I won't even begin to tell you how much it sucks.

I'm going to Japan - the land of my dreams - and I'm broke. Great, this is absolutely fabulous. Right now I curse my mother for forcing me to take driving lessons before leaving. There goes 10.000 SEK e.i. 1.419 USD for nothing. It's not as if I'll be able to take my license before I leave and or remember anything I've learned so far when I come home.

Oh and my mum just called and yelled at me for crying.

This sucks and I seriously don't want to live right now.

The end.

Looks like Nino's movie is coming to Sweden too. And I'll be able to see if before I leave for Japan! I was so happy when I heard that. First Tegomass, then D'espa and Now Nino on the big screen. I feel so lucky being alive right now. Everything around me is moving towards a new future (not that there are any old ones ... ) and I'm there - standing in the middle. I feel so grateful. Mum, dad - thank you for giving me this life to enjoy to its fullest! I love you.

EDIT

I just realised that I'll be leaving for Stockholm the 7th ... and the movie is airing the 8th ... damn ... I hope I'll be able to cath is there~!

Ok. Now it's very early - 03.32 to be exact. And why I am up at this time? Well I'm leaving the country. *laughs* Now that sounded very horrible.

I'm going to Ireland, Dublin, for the weekend with my English C course. I'll see a lot of things, buy a lot of things and come home dead tired. Yaaayyy~~! Anyway - off to hunt breakfast I shall go ...

From now on I will be friends-locking my journal. But don't let that scare you off! Just comment here if you are interested in being my friend. Just tell me a little bit about yourself and I'll let you in ;)

EDIT (17/03 2007):
I've decided to open it again since a lot of people whom don't own a journal will read it when I go to Japan. I didn't really suspect how naked it would make me feel to open it again ^^'

EDIT (26/05 2007):

Locked again ^^;;

UWaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!! It came back again!!! I'm not taking this anymore! I'm NOT losing to a SPIDER!!

.. ok so maybe losing isn't such a bad thing?

Right now I have abandoned ship (i.e bed) and at the moment I'm occupying the floor. (HA! Take that you spider!!!!!)

I'm going up to make breakfast or something.

Oh - and did I mention how much I HATE spiders?

Butterflies and spiders simply don't mix.

//chou-ko-miyavi

Omg omg another spider decided to pay me a visit tonight! It was CRAWLING ON MY SCREEN ( I also have reason to beleive that it was crawling on my leg earlier but I have no evidence to prove it)! I used my 1337-flute-skillz and gave it a trip across the room. Did it decide to leave me alone? NO!! After only a few minutes it comes crawling right back! I swear - spiders hate me just as much as i hate them. Gah -__-

And just HOW am I supposed to sleep now? Usually my spider-neighbours and me have an agreement. I don't see them, they don't drop down on me and I don't kill them - we both gain. But this itzy bitzy spider has broken the holy contract. For all I know it could be making it's way beck here right now! I will never fall asleep now!!! )(`"(#=Q)"/¤?)(/Q?

In fact - I've already decided that I WON'T fall asleep. I now it's watching, just waiting for me to fall asleep before it jumps me and kills me ...

Sooo - I'm staying awake - with my lamp on, listening to miyavi (selfish love) för the next two hours before it's time to get up. T__T;; (oh and I just found out that miyavi can play the piano as well - so I'm quite happy with the world at the moment - despite my spidey-problems.

I was talking to Kumo earlier today (this morning) and she said that she's somewhat cured of her spider phobia and that has something to do with me. She said she couldn't be afraid when there was someone else - that being me - whom was even more frightened. Bah I curse spiders!!! DAMN YOU ALL AND YOUR STUPID LONG HAIRY AND UTTERLY CREEPY LEGGS!!!!!!)!/#=/&!=##!#)/

Fuck . my leg just fell asleep -___- ::dies::

Ok - since I won't be going to sleep anyway I might as well continue writing here. It's my mother's birthday today! Yay! I hope she'll enjoy my present - I spent many hours on it so she better!

I'm thinking og taking a shower at the moment ... but I'll probably end up waking my parents so I'd rather not. But since I feel spiders crawling all over me - a shower would be a bliss right now ::cries hystericly::

I'm thinking of making her breakfast as well - I'm thinking scones or something. hmmmmm ...

I might actually do that. Except for that the last time I did that I woke mum up ^^' At least the scones were tasty.

Ahhh my foot is still asleep! Wake up you stupid ahdöiajhduiaY/RP)(/&)(Q#/! That spider probably bit me and right now I'm slowly dying TT__TT They'll find me tomorrow (today - whatever) - dead, my body stiff and unmoving (duh). my skin will be purple with pink and green spots and my tounge will be blue.

-_____- sniffle


I'm wondering what K-chan's doing right now. Ok so I know she's still sleeping >__< But she'll wake up soon (in Japan damn heeeer~~~!). I hope she liked the present she got from Sanna and I. ^^

hmmm - I think I'll just end this one here for now!

jya, mattaaaa~~~!

//chouchou - who can feel 8x eyes staring at her from the shadows of her desk ...

Two days and counting until Emi comes here! I'm really exited! We're going to meet up with her in Lund, at the station. She'll be coming by train from Stockholm on friday. She's probably on the plane now. I hope she's not all too worried. U suspet the jetlag will be horrible on her. ^^' Oh well.

Tomorrow's my mother birthday so i've been spending the day preparing her present (and DAMN it - something always goes wrong). But I'm done now (yay).

I wrote my host-family letter today! I've been putting it off for weeks but now I'm finally done! Thanks Fanny and thank you Elise for helping me!

Anything more to write about?

hmmmmm

I'm taking a stroll in Lund tomorrow for an hour or two with Elise and Catta - that'll be fun fun fun~! ^^

Oh - and we're having a party for mum and Emi on sunday (since mum's birhtday is tomorrow and Emi's on Sunday.

And THAT was everything! yepp! I'm all done now! Done done done! Ahhh~~~! This feels so nice. OK - I'm off to do what I do the best - nothiiing~~~! ;)

Jya, matta!

Yaaay~~~! Fanny's comiing over - we're going to watch a horror movie! It'll be sooooo fun! ^^

Right now - I'm writing a letter to all my possible host families - it's really really hard ;__;

Thanks for helping Kumo! ♥

And you too Fanny dear!

Love ya both

//Chouchou

OKAY so I lied. The songs are NOT from his new album. So SUE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG OMG my heart is beating its way out of my chest!! Wondering how it came to that? Well here is what happened:

I was watching a jdrama on youtube when I decided to check my LJ to see if anything interesting had happened. And what did I find? Someone had ripped two songs from miyavis performance in Shanghai! Both are now from his upcoming album. I was sooo happy and my face split because of the huge smile stretching from ear to ear. But that wasn't what got my heart beating oh no sir!
Just when I was being this happy, thinking that life couldn't be better I feel something touching my arm. Ok, I think, it's probably the fly that's been annoying me all day. So i reach to brush it of - to scare it away. The only thing is ... it doesn't. I can still feel that damn fly on my arm. So I turn my head to look at my offender. My reaction? Ok - that is NOT a fly. My worst nightmare was crawling upp my arm - taking a nice night stroll! Say hello to mister spider! TT___TT
Ok - so what did I do? Well ... What I DID was doing what I normally do:





panic




I mean, it was CRAWLING UPP MY ARM! The MOST DISGUSTING creature to ever walk on earth was enjoying the view from my arm! What was I to do? This is what I did:

1. Slapping the damn thing off my arm.
2. Shooting straight up from bed.
3. Mind yelling "Oh my god I'm dying I'm dying I'mfuckingdying!!!!"
4. Hand reaching for light-switch, turning the light on (all the while emitting squeeky - and mind you - panicky screams).
5. Locating thing of doom sprinting on my bed ("Oh my god oh goooood I'M DYING OH WHYYYYYYY!?!?!?!?!)").
6. Grabbing a pillow, pushing it down on the floor.
7. Arm not connecting with common sense, mind bussy screaming ("GAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!", arm slamming down lamp on creature of doom - successfully turning said thing into sticker-format.


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OK - so that's what happened and THAT's what made my heart go crazy.

And now - if you'll excuse me - I'M going back to watch my drama which, by the way, happens to be exellent.

//depressed Chouchou

Yesterday I changed my LJ-layout? Ya like it? Honestly - lips such as his just DON'T exist! They just don't! Why (oh whyy!??!?!?!?!) is it that he, being a boy, is a lot more pretty than me? I'm a girl ffs!! TT_TT oh well - I enjoy looking at him ... drooling over him ... fantasizing about him ... XD

Honestly, japanese men are gods gift to women. There is NOTHING more beautiful than a real bishounen (and of course we exclude the hottie in the music shop ♥ ).

ok so today I rinsed the downstairs bathroom of my unnecessary things since Emi-chan will be coming soon and half of the bathroom will be hers. When I was done a realized that I didn't even need half of it >__<''' .

I'm also finishing my present to Emi today (hopefully ^^'). just some few minor details left now. ^^
I hope she'll like it - I don't think I've ever put this much effort into a birthday present before ^^' ehehhhhhhehhhh -___- .

Oooh! And I talked to K-chan yesterday (or more like this morning) by headset. It was really nice hearing her voice again! She's been gone for almost 5 months soon - that's half of her stay there! Crazy! I hope I can talk to her again like that. Tanoshikatta ^^ ! But I'll probably be going to bed quite early today - I'm SOOO tired. We didn't stop speaking until just before 08:00 today O_O::
So yeaah - It'll an early 'off to bed' for me today ^^' I have to turn my hours around again until Emi comes!

Kyaa I can't wait to meet her - it'll be sooo fun!

jya, matta

//Chouchou

Boooored I'm so booooored! Gaaaah! I have NOTHING to do! (please excuse me random LJ-ranting)

I would have gone to bed BUT I have to stay up untill 02:00 since I'm going to talk to K-chan over msn. And I really really want to talk to her so sleeping is not an option.

I cleaned my room today (yay) ... and right now I'm quite proud of myself.

Oh and I have a headache and a extreamly strong longing for Japan right now ... and miyavi.

Right now I'm going through photoshop-miyavi pictures. I'm on 145/214 ... yay?

I have to flipp through them now and then since new pictures show up now and then. I takes time ;__; but in the end it's worth it.

now I have nothing more to write about (as if I DID write about something interessting in the first place -___-). NOW I guess I'll just waste some time on youtube. >__<

//Chouchou

OK so I decided to update - just because I HAVE to sometime XD

And I have a lot to write about but I guess I'll do that later ^^'

Today me and Kumo are going fot a quick trip to Lund. My buss leaves at 12:04 so I don't have much time left now!

Ah and Emi-chan is comming soon too! I wish her a safe trip from Japan! ♥

Jya, me be off to da bathroooom~~~~!

//chouchou

I talked to Nuriko on msn today ::heart:: and it was great to hear her feeling all genki again ^^

I miss her a lot ;__; but I'm so happy she's in Japan too, I really am.

So, witch all my heart to you, Nuriko-chan:


がんばってね！！！

Fuck fuck fuck holy mother of __insert-inappropriate-word here__

I did it. I did it again. -_-

I set my alarm to go off at 08.00 and woke up at 10.15 when the phone rang:

- Hello Malin, this is Josefine.
- Hello (shit shit shit shit shit)
- We had an appointment for you at 10.00 today.

Yeah and the rest you just guess, alright -_-

I was supposed to be at the barber today.

Lucky me she could reschedule me to next tuesday.

I always do this.

And really - the fact that this is the second time i had to reschedule too ...

oooooooh I'm so uncool -_-

Fuck

//Chouchou in distress

Fuck fuck fuck holy mother of __insert-inappropriate-word here__

I did it. I did it again. -_-

I set my alarm to go off at 08.00 and woke up at 10.15 when the phone rang:

- Hello Malin, this is Josefine.
- Hello (shit shit shit shit shit)
- We had an appointment for you at 10.00 today.

Yeah and the rest you just guess, alright -_-

I was supposed to be at the barber today.

Lucky me she could reschedule me to next tuesday.

I always do this.

And really - the fact that this is the second time I had to reschedule too ...

oooooooh I'm so uncool -_-

Fuck

//Chouchou in distress

I HATE History .. die`! History DIEEEEEEEEE!!!!! ::goes and dies herself::

Ohayo minna-san!

I went to bed early yesterday and as a result I woke up in the middle of the night, unable to go back asleep ^^'' so I finished watching 'Shogun' - a VERY good movie, you should all go watch it! Now! Yes GO! XD

Sooo - now I'm here - NOT sleeping, writing to you ^^

Saturday evening I got to know two very nice things!

1. We are going to be taking over a lionhead rabbit from a friend of ours whom sadly enough can't take care of her anymore. I wanted to name her miyabi .. but she already has a name, of course .. but why? WHY did it have to me Morris? I mean come ON! Ahh anyway - we can expect her arrival sometime this week ::heart::

2. Mum told me my 18th birthday present in advance! I'm going to design my own dress and have it tailored for me! Isn't that incredible! I'm going to make it 1700-ish and blue O___O yeessshhhhh blueee .... XD

ahh have to quit writing now - school ya know .. ahh and the way there on my bike ;__; nah I won't complain - it's quite fun ^^
But today the journey home shall be a lonely one as KuMo-chan will not be there with me ::naku naku::
But I shall endure! AND even before that I have to make it trough school today ::dies:: ahhh but it's litterärgestaltning now in the morning and that will be fun ne? ^^

yosh! Lot's to do lot's to do! Sooo I'll see you later!

Jya matta ne!

//chouchou

Oh god

I think I'm sick today

And right now

I just want to sleep

But that is a thing that's very much impossible

Beacause I have to go to school

and afterwards I'll stay at Catta's house until

Kodachi-kun tomorrow

So I have to be genki

But I'm not

and my nose is running

oh dear god

this is not good

...

at all

Chou-san with a strong craving for a pillow